I feel like I'm living in a think tank called Palo Alto. I need a respirator. There is too much cognitive processes going on here and I need air. I need stupidity. I need an episode of Family Guy.

ARG BOO AHH! SIGH.

I dont wear makeup anymore. I am becoming homely and disgusting as a graduate student. I also wear glasses around town and mismatched attire. :X

I love how I am so sure the first time around in a test and then when I go to recheck my answers I start to question myself. I should just hand that bitch in and forget about it.

Anywho, people around here think I'm smart. I think it's because I don't answer questions or ask questions unless I desperately need to do so. I'm not like those people who randomly says shit to hear their own voices in the classroom and I never interrupt the teacher to express opinions. I do that enough in the real world. I like to give professors a chance to show off their knowledge. Ha.

I think I took the phrase "brain food" a little too far tonight. I must have eaten enough food to feed an entire ant colony. I can feel the fat attaching itself to my tissues and sitting there to taunt me in the morning.

i have a newfound respect for doctors. I have to learn a bunch of shit about the brain and it's only a snippet of what 'real' doctors have to learn. I mean, I used to oogle med school students based on their potential monetary net worth and current good looks, but now I'll give them kudo points for being smart as well.

Everytimg I get angry at someone or something, I know it's just hidden guilt. I think it feels better not to get angry, but to feel bad and then get over it. I am speaking about my dog...

i'm totally freaking out.

it's survival of the fittest around here. let's see who doesn't lose their cool and drop out of school from the workload and stress. i want to give away my dog because I don't have time for him. Ive been in the library for six hours now and I do'nt plan to go home until 10pm. It's like i'm running my own little kennel. Maybe I should make side money by keeping dogs in crates in my studio.

Come one, come all. Store your puppies in my apartment. They'll be let out twice a day and receive mediocre exercise.

i like how i'm in the library and there are four huge tables free, but this girl decides to sit at my table. why? who the fuck knows. stupid bitch.

I worked at the italian shop this weekend and this crazy bitch of a rich woman with too much time on her hands, (but not enough time to cook dinner like a proper housewife), came into the store bitching about how the lasagna and other orders were always fucked up. She stomps up to the cash register, apparently just finished with a facial and hair styling, and yells,

"THIS IS NOT AN ITALIAN STORE! This is an American store that sells Italian things."

Hm, last time I checked, we are in America, this is a chain store, I am not Italian, and I don't see an Italian 'mom' or 'pop' manning any stations. Um, thanks for the clarification and I'm glad you see that our marketing campaign isn't working as well. Damn you must be so smart. We weren't able to fool you into thinking that you were in the old country with vine ripen tomatoes free falling from the ceilings. I know that isn't the Tuscan sun setting into the store; it's only the California sun and we have hallogen lighting. Oh yes, this store is only four years old. Don't let the crisp white tiles fool you. In Italy, everything is older than your great great great grandfather's uncle's grave, but seriously, we tried to make the store look authentic. You're just too smart! You've won a prize for being Sherlock for the day. Here, have a free sample of cheese.

How I am not spending my time:
1. cleaning
2. buying frivilous items
3. making out with cute boys
4. browsing stores
5. breathing
6. relaxing
7. watching tv
8. baking
9. internet surfing
10. stalking people on facebook
11. friendstering
12. watching CSI
13. illegally burning dvds
14. chatting on AIM
15. making crafts
16. Photoshopping
17. nothing

How I am spending my time:
1. bitching about not having time
2. posting blogs between studying
3. studying
4. eating random snack foods
5. working out
6. beating my dog
7. freaking out
8. studying
9. pleading to God to give us more time in the day
10. freaking out
11. writing papers
12. researching papers
13. sitting in class for six hours
14. meetings
15. peeing
16. showering
17. studying
18. freaking out
19. drinking wine
20. working
21. freaking out