i instated the jon-detox since 6:15pm yesterday PST. tv detox shall begin today as well. got lots of revisions and school work to do!

1. Erin, provide link.
2. I have to obsess properly then I can detox. I can't ignore all the thoughts and feelings that are swimming in my head. Once that is over, then detox can occur. Detox prevents me from ruminating.

i had a dream a co-worker was pregnant. look around guys. anyone here preggers? COME ON!!!! someone in my life is.....

i think by next week this all will blow over....and things will be okay between me myself and i. jon will be out of the picture and my life shall continue, happily without him. i can do it.. hahha give me a few more days to obsess. next week. it's tv and jon detox. for now, it's whining, fantasizing, and ruminating!

herein lies the problem. i want to hear from him. i want him to want me. i dont want to block nothing.

okay, so how do i handle text messages? what happens if he text messages me? i still don't know how to ignore texts. i can ignore calls, but texting is a new domain. you can't ignore the text as you can a phone call. it's there...the person is waiting for a reply. what if it's a pertinent question? a question that is answered easily? WHAT IF?!?!

maybe i should burn that bridge when we get there. i need a plan of attack before i freak out and reply when i shouldn't. lord. okay i wont reply.

i love the attention!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeee give me more!!!!!!!!

what do you do if i want to be in love again? :( AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

i took an emotional dump today. wow. i cant believe i saw him last night. i fantasized about running into him a billion times, but nothing prepared me for the real thing. i experienced an emotional upheaval witnessing him talk to another girl-- a very cute tiny latino-mixed or too-many-sessions in-the-tanning-booth girl.

i shook like i had a muscle twitching disease and saw stars like i had a bad case of vertigo.

today i was mauled by the pew knee majig at church. this old lady pulled the knee-pad thing out and knocked the shit out of my leg. i cursed her with my eyes!!!! and then i asked god for forgiveness. i need shin guards to praise the lord.

today i was mauled by the pew knee thing at church. this old lady pulled the knee bad thing out and knocked the shit out of my leg. i cursed her with my eyes!!!! and then i asked god for forgiveness. i need shin guards to praise the lord.

i live on the most amazing street. the gay pride comes by my window, the sf marathon breezes by, i have rappers, crack whores, and restaurants and bars galore!

i attend a church whose address is 666 filbert st. hmmm. strange? ironic, no?

omgomg..guess who i saw tonight. omg omg ogomg mog ogm ogmogmogg

omg omg omg omg omg