looks like ive been missing in action. the first two weeks of school are okay. a lot easier than last year in terms of adjusting and learning what is going on in class and the clinic. right now i'm struggling with staying awake. i realized i probably only had about three hours of sleep last night seeing that i didn't get home until 9 from seeing a client, then walk the dog, do stretching/yoga, then i had homework to do, then eat dinner of sorts....so then wake up to haul ass to class and homework and now a meeting. back on the caffiene bandwagon.. i never really fell off, but now it's vital!

on a bright note, class was canceled so i got a ton of reading done. excitiinnngggg. and i get to see updated xrays from the chiro's. i may stop seeing him and wait for the neurologist because the chiro is getting on my nerves..literally. the improvement has leveled off and now i'm back at bone crackingling in the morning.

the 'non-crazy' pills are working well and i'm doing better in trying to keep it chill. i feel very slow on the drugs because i'm not evved up with anxiety, which got me to get things done fast and efficiently. now i get things done slow and somewhat efficiently because i still get out of the door at the same hour/time. however my clothes piles are horrendous. i will tackle that tonight along with two books i need to read for school and a paper.. and probably a stack of articles. ohh the joys of grad school :P

omg. tried xanax and all the muscle back spasms went away and the psychotic thoughts of suicide. i felt normal and did not have to constantly rub my fucked up shoulders and neck. wow. how wonderful it is to not be in pain and enjoy life.